Saturday, September 29, 2007
i want to go to another place. it's oh so boring here in singawhore. we're almost more than a year and God it still sucks. i really don't care if still i don't have friendly friends. of course i can't go out that much because i have a son to look after. Same sights everyday. It seems like I'm not growing or evolving into something better. Same shit everyday. I don't want to go back to the Philippines. I just want to move out of this country. But still I have to sacrife! Sacrife and sacrifice.
super nostaligic talaga! parang gusto kong bumalik bigla sa pagkabata ko nung napanood ko to! lahat ata ng nasayaw nila sinasayaw ko noon. binilhan pa nga ako ng mama ko ng album ng universal motion dancers noon. uso kasi ang butterfly dance noon. tapos pag sumasayaw naman ang streetboys hinihinto namen ang mga ginagawa namin para lang manood. habang pinapanood ko to nung sunday sa asap sumasayaw ako. kasi alam ko pa din yung mga steps. pinaka favorite ko ung "tootsie roll". malamang kung di mo alam kung ano ang pinagsasabi ko eh bata ka pa noon o kaya pinagplaplanuhan ka palang gawin ng magulang mo noon. nostalgic talaga. time warp talaga. sana bata ulit ako.
All i can say to you now is goodbye and take care of yourself. maybe you're right. sorry for all the wrong things i've done. all the mistakes. but i hope you'll also remember all the good things we've shared together. all the fun and the laughter. you'll always be a part of me. and from now on i promise myself that i won't shed another tear for you. after more than 2 years of being together and a kid after this is what we've become. we've come a long way and maybe you're right to end this relationship. maybe someday we'll be back together or if that doesn't happen you might find someone to be with you. but still i'll always be here for you as a mother of your child and a friend. as for me, life still goes on. and i'll try to live my dream without you. our talk this afternoon was the go signal for me to accept the fact that you don't need me as much as i need you. so maybe it's better also for me to do the same thing that you are doing. just forget and do somethings that are much important than our relationship. so here's where our story ends. always remember that i love you from the moment that we broke up. until now as i write this post. and maybe only time can tell if im totally over you. step by step im removing you out of my system. my final words for you.
ben kweller song thirteen makes my heart beats fast. even if im not in-love, i makes me feel in-love. Thirteen is song for his girlfriend. Hope someone will do the same for me. Honestly the song reminds me of jego.
napanood ko yung video ng TEENAGE HERO sa youtube. Ilang months ko na din hinahanap yun. May special appearance pa sina earl,jepoi at kito. Super laughtrip tlga.. hahahaha
